Two weeks ago, I had an extremely toxic week at work ending it with an unplanned weekend deployment. I wasn’t really looking forward to the coming week but then as I was cleaning up on Sunday night and preparing for the work week, I saw that Yui has written a quote on her little whiteboard that says:
I was never a hardcore gamer and would conservatively call myself a casual one at that. The only gaming accomplishment I’m most proud of is completing Diablo II in PSP a looooong time ago. Well, aside from getting 5 stars in Just Dance. Haha.
With this I would say that Yui’s Minecraft addiction and gaming skills didn’t come from me. But as a supportive mom, I’ve grown to love the game as well and by watching her play, I came to realize that there are actually life skills you can get from playing Minecraft.
I was there at the back of the boat looking far into the horizon, the sun beginning to set on that late afternoon. I was staring blankly at the waves when it suddenly hit me. Here I am, spending a day in a far away island with friends old and new, still alive and enjoying life. It’s been almost two years since the day that he went away. September 22nd, Sunday twenty five after nine. In the doorway with his case, no longer shouting at each other there tears on my face. We were letting go of something special… (okay, enough with the M2M pun) 😂
I’ve spent the last two years trying to rebuild my life and building a new one without that someone I thought would be here for forever. Well, walang forever so anong nakakagulat? Haha! Anyway, it is a very educational experience. I needed to spend time to reflect on what was, what is and what will be. It was hard, very hard. But slowly I found myself smiling again, then laughing again. With the help of my family and friends, I’m here alive and kickin’.
As the proverb says, “fall down seven times, stand up eight.” This has been the mantra that kept me going the past months. Despite all the challenges, there was always a reason to stand up and fight another day. Thus, I stood up.
The past year has been challenging, to say it simply. It has taught me a lot of life lessons that I didn’t even fathom before. It’s showed me the harsh reality of life but at the same time it’s showed me that life is still bearable and eventually, beautiful despite these obstacles. Honestly, although I’ve known these all along, it’s different when you’re the one that’s actually there. When life kicks someone we know in the butt, it’s easy for us to offer our advices but if you’re the one in that situation, it’s very difficult to follow a sound advice. Now I know why my friends seem to never listen. Because it’s hard to.
I’ve been kicked, pushed and strangled by life and sadly the bubble I was living in was burst in an instant. I was in a deep, deep hole. And when I thought I couldn’t go up, I remembered the proverb. Slowly, I stood up. Slowly, I regained the “old me”. Slowly, I started the journey to a happier me. It wasn’t easy, but with help, I eventually found it. I know life is a roller coaster so this moment I am in will soon fade and I would find myself at the bottom again but with what I learned the past year, I know I can stand up.
As the year 2013 comes to a close, I see a lot of posts in my facebook timeline of friends highlighting their 2013. Most have this year as their best yet while a few had some challenges and can’t wait to meet 2014. Personally, this year has been the roughest, toughest and darkest for me.
It started out peacefully and although met with some challenges, I believed that we were overcoming the issues. Or so I thought. Towards the middle of the year, the little bumps became more frequent and slowly became harder and harder. Until it all blew in my face. To say that I was blindsided is an understatement.
It was like being on the edge of the cliff with gravity instantly pulling me in. It was like falling into a deep darkness where no help came. It was like a huge part of me died. And the saddest part is knowing that it will never live again.
Despite everything that has happened though, I’m still thankful to be alive. I had a lot of lessons learned as I tried to move forward. And as I welcome 2014, I would like to share some of the things I learned this year:
1. Not everyone who smiles at you is a friend.
Even if you meet people who you think are friends, there are those who will betray you. As it turns out, no amount of kindness can prevent someone from taking the most important thing in your life from you.
2. No matter how honestly you live your life, there are really others who are not. And some are much closer to home than you think.
3. It’s true that there are people who have lost their values and have a twisted belief of self-righteousness.
As the saying goes, “Don’t judge a book by its cover.” You would think that people who grew up in good families and went to the best schools will grow up to be responsible and honest adults. But there are really those who only think about themselves and their happiness even if they will throw all decency and morals out the window. No amount of training or curriculum can ever prepare you for it.
4. Life is not fair. And Shit Happens.
5. At the end of the day, your family and true friends will stand by you, push you to move forward and make you realize that life does not end when you lost love.
I am one of those who can’t wait for 2014. I look forward to a better year and hopes that peace will finally make its way to my life. If not, I can always refer back to #5. So 2014, bring it on!
The last month has been a pity. One blog post. Nothing else. Although my blog life was severely in drought, real life was something else.
Weekdays have been 16 average hours in the office and weekdays were quality time with the family. There are a lot of blog-worthy experiences and places I’d like to share in my blog but the farthest they reached was on my to-do list.
April is one of the busiest months at work as it is our performance feedback season. This year the deadlines were so tight so I had to make ends meet to finish the 28 feedback requests I received from my team. And this is on top of my normal work. I spent zombie nights working/sleeping/eating in the kitchen just to finish all those feedback. It was painful work but the importance of it pushed me to the finish line. Buzzer beater. But at least it’s done! 🙂
Now that it’s over and a new month is in, I’m back with a vengeance! This is my month. So I’m gonna make it count. 🙂
I’ll start with the life lessons I’ve learned from all those frantic feedback nights.
It’s 2013! It’s a new year! Woohoo!
And what great way than to start the NEW year with the week’s travel theme. 🙂
Life’s greatest travel is life itself. And while we make that constant traveling to find ourselves, we always discover something new about us and others. Here are some photos that represent “new” to me which were actually events that happened as the year 2012 is coming to an end. As they say, With Every End There Is A New Beginning. 😛
For 2013, Daddy Bunny wanted to learn a new instrument. And the bunny family all got an instrument when we went shopping for his violin.
During Yui’s Christmas Program, I was able to experience being a “ballet teacher”. It’s something that I’ve wanted to do for a long time.
Last 2012, I was given the opportunity to handle a new team and with this forge new friendships.
I always believed in the saying, “The only thing permanent in this world is CHANGE.” And one thing I learned recently is that we are never too old to try something new.